Gordon Lightfoot, Tattoo
I had such plans of getting things accomplished today. Bah.
I went by the Cashier's Office and got all of the change weighting down my purse turned into paper money. If I'd actually relinquished all my quarters (I decided a few bucks worth of quarters were a nice thing to have around) that would have been $20 just from quarters. Ack. No wonder my purse was heavy. I didn't even bother with the pennies, I just tossed them into my penny jar. I probably have a dollar or two in there, but it isn't really worth counting to find out.
Then I grabbed a quick lunch and went back to my room to read my icky semiotics book. I got through a chapter of it before I decided I needed a nap. While I was sleeping, Jeff came by with more boffer weapons to store. That failed to completely wake me up and I went back to sleep. I meant to take about a half hour nap. I slept for 2 hours. Yay me.
Jessica'll probbly be done with her papers soon, and then we're heading up to see Sean. We'll be back either late tonight or early tomorrow. Either way, I figured I'd get the entry out of the way now.
*sigh*. Everything about Sean is so complicated sometimes. I care about him, but part of my brain keeps saying "why bother? A year from now it'll be over". I'm hoping it'll last the summer, but I just can't count on more than that. I know he isn't someone who'll be happy in a long distance relationship, so I have a feeling that things will end in the fall when we both go back to school. I'd certainly be up for continuing things beyond that, and I think he'd like to be able to, but I just don't think he'd be happy. So it worries me. I wish that there were a way to work around it, but I don't really see one. Neither of us has any flexiblity about which city we'll be in come fall, and nothing we can do will make the drive shorter. I'm certainly willing to set aside a weekend or two a month to drive up and be with him, but he deserves better than that. He deserves someone who can be with him all the time, who can hold him when he's lonely. I want to be that person, but there simply isn't any way for me to be. I have two years of school left before I have any flexibility on where I live, and he has even more than that. So I don't really know what to do. I'm not someone who generally lives in the moment. I like to daydream abou the future, and I'd like to include Sean in those daydreams, at least when I'm thinking of the next few years. But I know better. But I'd rather have the time I do have with him than no time with him at all. So I suppose I press on this way.
And I suppose I should go pack. Jessica'll call any minute.
Captain Squanky signing off