Gordon Lightfoot, Much To My Surprise
Nea's tired, so another short entry is what this shall be. Wa. English word order, bah.
Well, I woke up around 10:00 today, which is pretty darn amazing for me. Granted, it was 11:00 to my body because of the switch to standard time, but getting up at 11:00 can also be an accomplishment for me some weekends. I deicded to wear my costume to brunch, just for the hell of it. It was kind of funny. I think that Io, Alice and I were the only ones wearing costumes at brunch today, actually. So I actually wore a skirt and pantyhose in public today, of my own free will. My costume ended up consisting of my bird mask, a black long sleeved bodysuit, black pantyhose, a short (slightly above knee length, which makes it the shortest skirt that I own) brown paterned broomstick skirt, and this weird cape thing that I made. Jesse said I looked like a sparrow. Ian said I looked like a turkey. It's a pity I decided agaisnt carrying the featherduster around, that comment deserved a mild smiting. Anyway, I digress.
Lunch was neat. People generally didn't recognize me until I started talking. That was fun. I think that it was a conbination of the fact that I don't usually dress at all this way, and the fact that at that point I had my hair stuffed into my bodysuit so it appeared to be about shoulder length (I later put it back in braids). Actually, it was pretty funny last night, when Io showed up and didn't know that it was me, even though it was in my room, for at least a minute. The food rather sucked at lunch though. I just had a bagel today.
Went back to my room, goofed off for a bit, waiting around for Ian to call. Read through a bit of a webjournal that I found the other day. Finally, he called and we went over to my mom's house to watch Babylon 5. That was fun. We watched 7 episodes...well, "watched" may be a bit strong there, but 7 episodes were played and at least half listened to. We watched "Infection", "The Parliment of Dreams", "Mind War", "The War Prayer", "And The Sky Full Of Stars", "Deathwalker", "Survivors" and "By Any Means Necessary". Insanely astute Babylon 5 fans (like me) will notice that we skipped an episode, "Believers". This is because I consider that to be a serious episode, and didn't want to half-watch it. It deals with a serious ethical dilemma that I think about a great deal, and I didn't want to trivialize it by turning it into a background piece. We may watch it later, I don't know. But to me it is a very sit, watch, and devote full attention to episode, and I didn't want to try to explain that to Ian right then, since neither of us were really in a sit on opposite ends of the couch and pay full attenion to the tv for an extended period of time mood. Anyway. We also cooked tacos for dinner and handed out candy to little trick-or-treaters.
Urgh. I need to really think about some stuff, and I'm not quite sure what to do. I need guidance, but from who? Urgh again. Will rolls aren't fun, especially when you can't tell if you made the choice you made because you failed or suceeded... my own thought processes worry me. *Sigh*. I wish I were at least better at talking about stuff, so he'd at least know the exact reasons why I suddenly get all weird and startled-deer-like. And I guess I wish I knew more about this sort of thing, because I don't like feeling stupid. But he's really been very sweet. I just wish I were less confused, and more sure of what I wanted, one way or the other. I hate not being sure, and therefore trying to stall. Stalling rarely helps a situation anyway. But I don't know what to do, therefore I stall, hoping for divine inspiration. Much like some of my homework assignments in that regard, actually... hmm, I wonder what the equivalent of asking someone else in the class for help would be...
Anyway, came back to campus a bit before midnight, and hung out with people in the lounge for an hour or so. Jeff and Colin were taking turns teling really bad jokes. It was sort of fun. Now I'm back in my room typing this and ICQing to Ian. But I think it's about time for Nea to get some sleep.